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INTERVIEW WITH KYM RAGUSA PASSING Series curator Kathy High conducted this telephone interview with Kym Ragusa in May, 1997. |
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Oh, thank you.
Actually, my grandmother had told me the story a bunch of times.
But I noticed that every time she told me, it was a little different. It
would be more or less detailed, or the year would change. There'd always
be something that was different. And I thought it would be a good idea
just to try to record the stories as she told me. Part of it was to see
how she remembered the story because it was something really
traumatic for her. And also really pivotal in her life. And I wanted to
see at different times, how and why she remembered certain things and not
others. And why, at certain times, she would not tell me certain things.
She wouldn't be explicit about certain things -- like her relationship with
the man she traveled with. Actually, I did it over a period of three
years. Another reason was that she has cancer and she's not well now, and
so I felt like I wanted to do something for her, and to preserve this part
of her life that's really her own thing that she did.
Yeah. It's not a true document in the sense that it's not a
one-time recording where this is everything that she said. I really messed
around with it to try to work in the gaps and work in the places where
things were kind of slippery -- to not make it a story that's easily read.
Because it was never easily read for me. If that makes any sense.
Okay. It's interesting that you say that it's almost subliminal
because that's exactly what I wanted. Because I felt like we've all seen
this footage before in so many different ways and what I wanted to get at
was more of an emotion around the events and a sense of fear and dread that
was not specific. In other words, my grandmother, being a light-skinned
[Black] woman from the North, hadn't necessarily experienced the things that were
going on in those images. She had heard about them, but she was in a
privileged position because she wasn't in that kind of danger. At least,
not where she grew up. But she had an idea that these were things that
were happening. So part of it was to think about how she might have felt
taking that trip and having these experiences: that this was a real sense of
dread and fear and unspoken danger. It seemed to make sense to try to
manipulate the images to give a feeling of that.
It's interesting because that part of the story -- every time she
told me, it was pretty much the same. Pretty much that she really couldn't
figure out what was going on and she didn't understand why these people
were asking her this particular question. And because she was someone who
wasn't from there and who was traveling, she imagined herself as someone
who was passing through and that that's what they thought she was.What she did tell me more explicitly was that her friend had been that way before. The story is that her friend had been a driver for a wealthy white man. And that they had taken that trip through the South to go to a place where this white man had a house. And this man liked this diner and he would go in himself and get food for them, for himself and his driver, my grandmother's friend. So, my grandmother's friend knew that it was a segregated place and, in fact, most places were, at that time. But he sent her in knowing that this was the case, and she never really talked about why he did it, explicitly. She talks about the fact that he knew it was segregated but she doesn't say why he put her life in jeopardy, in a sense. Why would he put her in danger? And so I thought that that was really interesting -- this unspoken risk-taking between this man and this woman, a dark-skinned man and a light-skinned woman.
Yeah. Testing her or testing the climate at the time. And she
never talks about being angry with him for that either. She just talks
about how she was afraid for his life. And her own. Once she left the
diner.
I think that in her own way she was brave. She told me another
story about when she was in junior high school; she refused to salute the
flag because she had just found out about lynching. And that ended up
being a big deal in her school and she almost got suspended and it was a
really difficult time for her. I think that she was brave in the sense
that she was able to speak out at times about racism and racial violence.
But, at the same time, because she was privileged, she often didn't have to
think about those things. So, that's another thing that I was trying to
say in the piece. She managed to not break out of her privilege, but she
managed to put that at risk for a while, I guess. I think that she's been
through a lot in her life and she is courageous. But I also didn't want to
paint her as some kind of hero, you know.
I chose black and white just because I really like black and white.
It wasn't that I wanted the piece to look authentically old; I just like
black and white. For me, it's just more evocative. And slowed down
because again, I really wanted the piece to be about emotion on a certain
level and about some kind of visceral sense of fear or dread, and I felt
like it needed to be slow for that to take effect.
Right. And for things that are still happening and you can see
that they're happening but it doesn't quite make sense necessarily. And,
also, I just feel like we're bombarded by really quick-cut imagery all the
time. You know, I didn't want it to be like a television commercial or
something. I wanted the piece to create a different space for people.
Thank you. I think that's great that you found that because
I do think of it as oral history. And I think of the work that I do in
general, or at least the work that I'm doing now, as oral history.
And I didn't want the images to explain the story at all. Again, it was
more about association or feeling. And also, the whole thing about the
dreaminess or the slowness is about how memory itself is so slippery and it
really takes time to call things back up. And even when you do call them
back up, they're not clear and maybe they're different every time you think
about them.
I've shown it a little bit. It played at the Charlotte Film
Festival . . .
Yeah. It's very exciting. And it showed at Women in the
Director's Chair. So that's where it's been so far. And I plan to show
it as much as possible. Being on Reel New York is an amazing
thing.
Thank you.
That's great. And it's interesting too because I was afraid for
a while that people wouldn't be able to read it, or that it would be too
obscure, or that her relationship with this man would be too obscure. But I
found that people have been able to get into the story, and if they haven't
been able to get particular things, they have gotten other things. Or
they've brought their own stuff to it.
Yeah. Exactly. And she was really concerned about protecting this
friend of hers. Who had since passed away, long ago. It's funny. I have
a recording where the first thing she says was "Do I have to name names?"
Yeah. And also I think that she's modest, and she doesn't see
herself as a big hero either. And I think that, for awhile, she
wondered why I was even interested. I think she thinks of it as this kind
of little story, that doesn't really have that much significance.
Okay. Thanks.
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